So long ago since my last journal entry... So much stuff happened. Admittedly I tend to just dump some art here every now and then and not pay it enough attention aside from that. Wish I had time and such to view everybody's art! :T

I decided to quit school for a year and I'm gonna continue again the year after this one. Looking for a job now to pay the added expenses.

As for online news, we recently revised all of WNL. I'm pretty excited. Sad that Leaf's leaving the admin team, but glad that I have Laura. And some other core members. I love them. I love WNL. And I love Gennae in the hissyfitty mood she's in right now. She should always have something or someone to be pissed off about, because she's so much fun to play when she's pissed off.

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Yep! The play-by-post fantasy wolf roleplaying game I used to own november 2002 until november 2005 - then shut down due to me going away IRL for a while - is back!

We're looking for more members, so anyone who likes roleplay forums, animals and fantasy aspects (religion, elements, magic, daemons / familiars) is more than welcome to join up with us! (:

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Just a (hopefully small) update from me.

I know I keep being half-there and not-there. I wish I could be more active, but I've got several things going on IRL and I'm just extremely busy with a LOT of things. I envy anyone who says they're bored. I always have something I HAVE to do.

Firstly there's my health. I have really low energy and big tiredness issues. I feel broken when I come home from school (away from 8.00 til 18.30, about, 4 days a week), I feel light-headed and woozy half the day and a few other issues. I've had problems with tiredness for a bunch of years now, so nothing new.

Last two years of school I've been averagely ill one day a week. On those days I'd just sleep all day because I was so tired. I'm attempting to be able to show up every single day now, but it's already wearing me down after 2 weeks of school...

Also, since I study illustration I gotta be creative all the time and that's really tiring as well. And the bunches of homework we have to do, on top of that.

Then there's the fact I already wish I could invest more time in my horse, writing, photography, online things such as DevArt, my dutch icelandic horse forum and WoW, and a bunch of other things.

So... Just generally busy, and tired. I didn't post anything new for a while because I feel guilty not being able to reply to anyone else's work at all the way things are.... But I'll try to post things now and then so at least I don't show as entirely dead -- and even though I'm very sorry I can't watch my friends' artwork as much as I'd like, at least you can keep a bit track of mine!

Also I'll try to keep posted a bit on this year, as it's a big year. Interms, interms-investigating beforehand, perfecting my own website, etc etc.

Sorry for being a bit absent, once more! -- oh, and I kinda failed at keeping it short, as usual.

Tuesday a week ago, my horse was crippling again. Röskur, my best friend, turned 20 years a few weeks ago, and he's had a tendon injury for 2 years. He was recovering and his tendon was fine through a long time. Tuesday, it was swollen and filled up again, warm, just like 'back then'. I also thought he had something with his back though, because when I got up just for one last time, he was crippling bad in walk! (normally, it'd just be in trot you'd notice it)

So I let it rest a bit, and decided that he's retiring. Then last sunday I went over again and suddenly he was loads better. I even walked on him for a short bit (just bareback on the halter, shortly) and he walked fine. He was very energetic and even his trot was loads better. He already didn't seem to have much pain tuesday but now he was also doing so much better.

I'll see how things go day by day, though. His injury's been really rough on me the past two years, he keeps falling up and down, and it costs too much energy for me. I'll keep him, because I'm not ready to 'give him away' to a good home or anything, and he's all fine with standing on the field eating grass with his two best horse buds, too, so why not?

It's so sad though, I've ridden with him for 3 years and we had so much fun, riding is truly therapeutic to me.

I'm looking out a teensy little bit for a new horse, but at the moment me and Arjan (my boyfriend, who also loves horses and rides at the local riding school to learn) are saving up still, and well, icelandics are pretty darned expensive, sadly.

I did get an awesome offer from my stable-keepers (it's just a field they rent from a farmer, but anyway...) that I can stable a second horse for not too much more than what I'm paying now for just Röskur, so I could keep him close to me like I want to. (I'd never 'exchange' him)

I'm not sure what I'm even looking for. Seen so many adds the past week. Some seemed nice and I even saw a haflinger horse that appealed to me (but, I didn't respond because I am so afraid that I will end up missing the extra gaits so much and it'd be unfair to the horse if I wouldn't appreciate him / her enough for it.) I'm completely fussed with myself what type of horse I'd want, and if I'm even ready for it, etc etc... Gah. I always confuse myself, rather than just... making decisions, damnit!

Right, yappidee yap time is over. I hope I'll get an administrative / data entry job soon! (it's silly, I know I'm plenty smart to do a smart job, but I really prefer to do data entry so I can just type, type, type. I think sooo much and have to be creative aaaall the time during the rest of the year, so a mindless summer job in't THAT bad. but meh, little jobs that have -only- data entry, and most other mindless jobs are like, too mindless. xD)

Well. I signed in at the job agency just yesterday.

Lately I was worried about one of my school projects. They're all due next week. Most are on scedule, but one...

The movie.

I was behind, I felt icky. Today we had to show what we'd done to the teacher who taught us technique. (only to get good/wrong, no actual grade.) I'd already been working at school for around 2 hours when he came and gave some more tips, and said he really liked it and that he thought I learned a lot.

Now, I only need to add some minor details to my movie, I worked for around 4-5 hours on it today. Whereas when I came to school I thought 'I wish I'd stayed home'. How silly I am.

Hence, more than ever, my motto goes: If you're looking up to something, or think things go wrong... Just do your best. Put all the effort you can into it, and don't worry too much. Then, even if you fail, you at least will have tried your very best!

I'll probably post the movie on here when it's done, I'm proud of how it turned out after everything .

Another thing I'm very, VERY keen on is the many favorites on 'The queen watches' at [link] !! Thank you so much, 21 is so much more than I ever expected! (though still a few behind on 'Monster inside' I think xD) I'm so happy with every single fav or comment I get, yay! <3

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